Most of you may have heard that I recently had a miscarriage followed by another miscarriage. I'm physically ok and need a little extra help with a hormone that I will get when we are ready to try again. But for now, I'm just sad.
I use to be a happy person. I miss that person. Since I've lived here I'm having trouble finding good things. Even finding little things to be happy about are very hard lately. I'm not sure why but everything has surfaced recently. So I'm looking for a one way ticket to peace. If anyone out there wants to give me one that would be great, cause being here is not working for me.
When we decided to move here, Nathan's face was stuck with saddness. It should've been a huge clue for me. I never thought that I would have a horrible time here. I thought that for sure I was going to be a strong wife who encouraged her husband all the time, but its totally gone opposite. He has had to pick me up and I barely stay up enough to keep him encouraged.
Please pray for the following right now as you read this. I'll help you start....Father, God....
1. help me to be a good wife and encourage Nathan no matter how hard it is for me.
2. help me to find peace
3. help me to see better through my God goggles...seeing good in all things
Thanks for all your help.
