Prayers and Praises

I keep meaning to write this and then find other things that I think need to be done.  I can be really bad about not sharing good news and instead update you on the bad in my life.  But this blog will have some of both, the good and the still sad.

I know so many people have been praying for me and the last couple of weeks I've been able to feel it.  I still don't like this place at all.  But it has been more bearable lately.  I feel great.  I'm not sure I've ever felt this healthy and it is amazing.  At the beginning of this new health thing I wished more than ever that I still lived in Missoula.  It would have been so much easier to eat and I would have had so much more support.  I get a lot of things like...You make me sick(eating so healthy) and I could never take(fill in the blank)out of my diet and for some reason lots of people roll their eyes at you when you eat healthy.  I was mad at God for making live here at try to do something that seemed impossible and lonely.  But as always He knew what he was doing.  Recently people have asked me for my Naturalpath's number.  People have even showed interest in having a more healthy lifestyle.  I've shared my story of this crazy journey more times in the last week and each time I do, it feels amazing.

Of course, Nathan has been very supportive and even feels better too.  I have friends here who are interested and have even cooked some gluten free things for me.  I am very grateful for this change.

I keep thinking of the song, Blessed be the Name of the Lord.  I really like the verse that says....You GIVE and TAKE away.  I feel like that has been my last year and a half.  I have felt so far away from God and have even had feelings of giving up on Him.  But I recently found out that I'm not in the black hole I thought I was.  I'm just in the Wilderness trying hard to find my way out.  Someone recently told me that even if you're complaining to God, it's a form of worship.  It's not the form I want to do forever, but it made me feel like I'm not totally lost.  I know God is here with me.  I don't think I would know that if I didn't have so many of you praying for me.  Thank you again.

I started my month long hormone test on Saturday.  Please pray that everything goes the way it should.  Each month I'm more ready than ever to be a mom.  Also continue to pray for me to get out of this Wilderness.  I'm still sad and struggling to live here.  Some things are getting better and I'm thankful for that.

Thanks again for all your encouragement and prayers.  Things are getting better.