Staying with the Partains

Our first week in Montana, we stayed with Angie and Jeremy Partain and their three boys. We had so much fun with all of them that we decided to go back and visit them again today. Here are some highlights from our week...

the newest Partain, Dodge. He is such a sweet baby and I loved getting to hold him lots.
Nathan tried to do nap time with the Cooper and Sawyer. Eventually they had to go to their room.
Sawyer and me at Out to Lunch in Cara's Park
"Nafin" and the boys at our cookout.

Funny Faces

We took Cooper and Sawyer out the other day. They made lots of funny faces while Nathan was in the bank. Both were really funny and very proud of their faces.

a very cute picture

Even More Pictures!

Our second day in Montana we came to the hot springs. Its about a mile hike in the most beautiful place in Idaho. I have forgotten just how pretty this place truly is. As you can tell it was kinda chilly starting out but it warmed up pretty fast. We also did see some naked people, as this is a clothing optional hot springs. But I didn't take any pictures of them...don't worry.

Belgrade MT...Part 2...the Olivers

The girls...Me, Katie, Vanessa, and Alyssa
Vanessa is proud of her things at her house. We loved them.

First stop...Worland, WY

Our first stop on our trip was in WY visiting our new and old friends. Kade and Ella were really cute. We had a great time with everyone.
Guy time
Kade is ready to take off...always.

Playing with each other
Ella aways has a question...Hopefully one day she can ask it.

Fun with Morgandy

Just some pics of Morgandy. We had so much

fun with her. She's a great kid.

Back to MO I go...

I have loved being with my family here in FL.
But I'm not too sad to leave this time because of
this guy...isn't he cute!

I think I found me again...

I'm starting to feel more like me again lately and it feels great. I know that in life you change all the time, but I had changed into someone I don't like. Its like being home has helped a ton. I'm talking more, smiling more, and starting to like myself more. And I'm almost certain that I heard myself laugh the other day. I'm hoping this keeps up so that when we have to come back to Sedalia I'll be ready to deal with that person I don't much care for.

Nathan and I are hoping this next year will be better than the past year. I think we had too many expectations last time only to have them crushed. This time I'm not going to expect anything and just hope to have some good times before we move. I am so thankful for a lot of things this past year but still not sure of God's reason for us being there yet. Maybe He's told me but I just haven't listened hard enough. But this summer I'm going to ask a lot and listen even more. Things will be better.

Me and Mo

My favorite part of summer so far.

The Beach

The beach was lots of fun. Morgandy really loved
it and could have stayed in the water all day.

Kennedy Space Center

Nathan prepare to lift off in 10, 9, 8, 7....
Space shuttle in the back ground
The Crawler...coming back from getting the
space shuttle
on the moon
Nathan as on of the first astronauts...the best
looking one for sure.

Anni, the best dog ever

This was our dog, Anni. She is going to a better home. But she was the best do ever!

Playing Putt Putt at Pirates Cove

Nathan and I got to Play Putt Putt with my parents in Orlando. We all got a hole in one, or two. It was by far the best Putt Putt we had ever been to. Dad and Nathan didn't escape the pirates in the end but Mom and I freed them...don't worry!

Taylors birthday at MIZZOU

We took our niece Taylor to a football game at Mizzou for her birthday. As you can see we had even more fun around campus...

I'm looking for a one way ticket...

The title of this post is just how I feel lately.  I wish I could buy a one way ticket to anywhere right now.  Ok, so I would actually need two one way tickets. I don't want to leave Nathan behind at all.

Most of you may have heard that I recently had a miscarriage followed by another miscarriage.  I'm physically ok and need a little extra help with a hormone that I will get when we are ready to try again.  But for now, I'm just sad.  

I use to be a happy person. I miss that person.  Since I've lived here I'm having trouble finding good things.  Even finding little things to be happy about are very hard lately.  I'm not sure why but everything has surfaced recently.  So I'm looking for a one way ticket to peace.  If anyone out there wants to give me one that would be great, cause being here is not working for me.

When we decided to move here, Nathan's face was stuck with saddness.  It should've been a huge clue for me. I never thought that I would have a horrible time here. I thought that for sure I was going to be a strong wife who encouraged her husband all the time, but its totally gone opposite.  He has had to pick me up and I barely stay up enough to keep him encouraged.  

Please pray for the following right now as you read this.  I'll help you start....Father, God....

1. help me to be a good wife and encourage Nathan no matter how hard it is for me.

2. help me to find peace

3. help me to see better through my God goggles...seeing good in all things

Thanks for all your help.

2 years ago...

Two years ago today my family was hit with huge loss.  My cousin, Adam, was killed in a car accident in Uganda, Africa.  Most of you know I was there when it happened.  I still remember talking to my cousin Kym about how it felt like a movie.  Today when I can't feel the realness of it. As soon as I feel that this really happened, I pull away from the truth.

I'm trying very hard to remember the time before Adam died, but its hard and overwhelming most of the time.  I am praying for my family to heal and have peace from this.  And if your reading this...I could use the prayers too.  We were very blessed to have Adam in our lives for 28 years.  I hope that I can one day remember the good times and great things he did.  

Thank you for loving our family and praying for them.

Catching up...

I haven't blogged in a long time. So I thought I'd catch up since I have time now.

As most of you know, Nathan and I live in Sedalia, MO. Its been interesting all around. I was very unhappy at first. But things are better now.

I still look forward to our next adventure. But for now, we are here so I will trust that God has a purpose for us.

I have a job at an elementary school working with a special needs student. For the first time in my life I love going to school. Its been a blessing for sure.

We are now in Flordia with my family for the Holidays. I feel like I can breath here. We have done nothing and it feels so good. I love getting to see my parents and just hang out.

I hope everyone has a blessed Holiday.